So you might ask where I have been lately, huh? By the way, that was my vanity only, there is so much posts in the web, and myself could be the only reader of this, but who cares?
My life has been chaotic lately, I don't even know how to bring it back to it normal state and speed, to the seemingly - easy - to - live - on ones like my mother's, my aunts, my grandma's, my colleagues'... What is was that made them so much different? I heard some laughing, it looks like that you don't believe me! Well please look at my daily chores then judge me later. As a working woman doing part time study, my days are totally occupied by working & being in class, then when getting home - it is already 8h50 PM, I just tried to fill my stomatch with some take-outs, then relaxe for a little while with some TVs (you hear it: TV, not even music or a DVD) and check my list of interesting blogs and news, have a quick shower before going to bed, then before we know it, another crazy day begins...
Of course, we all know girls that we have house chores awaiting to be finished, we have responsibilities as a woman to society and family, where can we find that precious extra time?
I don't know about you or your loved ones, but for me, I also want to go out, to do shopping, have a facial or haircut sometimes, to see movies for a lazy night in the city, or at least lay down with a new book and finish it without guilts of not doing homework, or not being to wake up in time the next day... And I try as much as possible to sneak out of the city during some free weekends...
Hey, I have not mentioned friends' visits - which I love, by the way, as I often used them as a valid reason to skip my normal days' duties (if there ever was such things) - or Vietnamese pratices of attend or pay visits to relatives, weddings, new born child's, social gatherings at beer garden, friends grouping for coffees, lunches or dinners. And you know that now that is YOU will go (instead of your parents) and pay all the bills (electricial, telephone, water) at the government offices and God - knows - what will pop up in your days...
Frankly, I don't feel like I am living my life anymore, and just like the one runs really hard to keep up with it! I look around myself and find my girlfriends in a very similar situation. We don't have time or to be precise, we don't have the luxury to spend time doing our energy boost or without thinking what we really should have done. How can our mothers having us in those difficult time, working, doing much more those social & family responsibilities, feeding us, and could still be there, calm and listen when we open our eyes? What REALLY went wrong in the young modern working woman's life? Does it really require a superwoman to live that life?
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I came to the new office one day with my shirt was a little creased (ironing is not my specialty and it is even worse when I'm getting late), a secretary at work asked me about it - a bit embarrassed, I explained to her about my time running out everyday and to my surprise, she told me about her home and life. It turned out, she her newlywed husband stayed very far from work (and still got in earlier than me), everyday she cooks lunch and dinner for both, cleaning house, learning English, doing their laundry (by hand), manage to watch the news on TV, helping her husband to relaxe (???), ironing for both, and then go to sleep.
In another words, she tried to tell me that I just over complained, as we - women - were assigned to do those, and perhaps, I was asking too much for myself.
She really got me thinking for a while, is that true that it is destined for every woman to finish all the work? Did I have my priorities wrong? When we learn about ourselves some more then we loose a little bit the ability to understand and sacrifice?
I am still confused about all these, but for sure, I just wish a day having 28 hours... fow now!
